Life of a Diamond

Peace: To be free from disturbance.

How many of us desire peace? Peace at home. Peace at work. Peace! Peace! Peace! Simple concept, yet so misunderstood by many, including myself. There was a time in my life in which I truly sought peace from outside sources. Not even realizing that the Source of all things is within me and all I had to do was tap in. John 16:33 Says “I have said these things to you, that in me you may have peace. In the world you will have tribulation. But take heart; I have overcome the world.” Its all about belief. Although all scripture is special, this scripture hits different because Jesus said it. Jesus was giving his disciples a warning about what was to come, regarding his death and resurrection. And I believe that he is giving us the same warning. The world is not a fairy-tale place like Disney would like us to believe, it is a dangerous place. To walk around being clothed in anything but the Spirit of God is suicide. Very drastic, yet very real. Each decision that we make from the time that we open our eyelids in the morning, until we close our eyes again at night should be made having sought God. I know to some, that may sound very time consuming, or even dull. I get it, there are so many things in life that demand our time and attention. We have families, friends, jobs, responsibilities, and bills. Where does one find the time to “check-in” with God? I had the same mentality. The thing is, after I had done things on my own accord, and life crashed down all around me and the things that I cherished the most were in danger of being taken away, the last place I ran was absolutely the first place I should have run. Up until I hit my rock bottom, I had made God into my own little pocket genie, taking him out of my pocket in times of crisis to fix the messes that I had created, and then I would go radio silent with Him until my next screw up. Notice I said, “I made God into my own little pocket genie…” I had taken Him for granted, and I hadn’t even realized that by me not being willing to include God in every area of my life, I was putting limits on Him and how He could bless me. My belief system was limited. Last I checked, Jesus said “With man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible” (Matthew 19:26). I was damaged, and a control FREAK, the worst combination. It wasn’t until I submitted myself to Him and started diving into His word, and renewing my mind each and every day that I understood that I was preventing myself from having peace, further delaying any progress that I had hoped to make. I thought I was waiting on God, and God had been waiting on me to hold up my end of our relationship. I had to let things go that was no longer serving the woman that I was becoming. That meant relationships, jobs, unhealthy habits, and a lifestyle that I had become accustomed to living. I had to literally Let go, Let God, and trust that whatever I was struggling to give up that he would replace it ten fold. And baby… He has exceeded all of my expectations thus far. Manifesting peace required me to find myself, to go within myself and understand the woman that God created me to be. My peace is my faith.